As the decade comes to an end, I’d like to note down all the things I need to change in my life for a better one. I say that every year and try to stick to new year resolutions but I have never been determined to keep them, I normally just did them because I thought that’s what you had to do when a fresh start is handed to you. But, this year I am old enough to know what’s best for me, to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I can picture what I want for myself in the future but I know I will have to commit to different habits to reach that, which is not easy for anyone. I am using the new year as motivation for what I have been attempting to do these past months but I never reached the goal I wanted, so hopefully January 1st will be a wake up call. Here are a few of my 2020 resolutions:
This is a classic resolution for many people, to lose weight or get those toned abs, but I don’t want to go to the gym for that, although they are a plus. The act of going to the gym and working out, makes you feel content and raring to go. Every time I go to the gym I feel so refreshed and motivated for the day, it releases endorphins (happy hormones), which will pull me out of the hole of always feeling tired and stressed. I do have a membership already, which sucks out twenty pounds a month and when I don’t go, that is a reminder and I feel a bit ashamed of my laziness. The hardest part of going to the gym is actually saying you will go and getting into your car, once you’re there, you’re there.
As an English student I should be reading a lot more than I do. I would say I read my book about four hours a week (very bad), which is nowhere near enough, especially knowing it can help with my exams. I love reading but I can never find the time to sit down with a book. The aesthetic of slumping down with a coffee, in my favourite chair and a novel, is one of my treasured moments that I could do in my spare time. So, this resolution is to schedule in time to read for at least fifteen minutes a day.
I’m currently reading ‘Little Women’.
Next year I would definitely like to spend more time with my family. We see each other a lot as we all live under the same roof, but having all different jobs and commitments to do makes it difficult to find a free hour together. Christmas has been perfect for this and i’ve loved the past few days with all of them, however, I know when sixth form starts again I will be consumed in school work and prioristise that over social activities. But no! Next year, I will arrange days in my calendar when I can spend quality time with them.
Stop procrastinating! I enjoy studying, I feel powerful when I am knowledgeable. However, the act of sitting down at my desk and committing to the fact that I will, never pans out unless I am in the mood for it (which is hardly ever). Having less lessons than last year, means I have more hours in the day to do what I want and over the first term, I have been misusing it. I sit on my sofa and watch movies or Netflix, which makes me happy at the time but at the end of the day I feel fatigue and unaccomplished. I am the sort of person that hates wasting a second in the day, but sometimes I burn out of energy and the lack of motivation drags me down and I admit to not wanting to do anything. I find it very difficult to self-motivate myself out of those thoughts, once my mind is set to it. Therefore, I am going to go to libraries or more coffee shops for studying because once I’m there, there’s nothing else I could do but the work I’ve brought in front of me.
Be Kinder to Myself
Starting sixth form has been really difficult for me, I’ve had a lot of ups and downs but I won’t bore you with them right now. I have made a few mistakes and I have really put myself down for it, thinking why can’t I have this perfect life everyone seems to have? Why is this happening to me? But, what I’ve learnt is ‘everyone is suffering their own battles’, some people just chose not to share them. And that you need to forgive and forget the mistakes you made because you’re human and humans make mistakes, that’s just life and because I am so young, it just shows that I’m learning. That learning process will shape me into a better person and a better life ahead of me, I just need to be patient and do all that I can now to work towards that dream.
I find journalling so relaxing and I recently did a blog post about it, where you can see my first attempt of an autumnal decorated page. Don’t be too harsh when you see it, I tried my best aha.
I have added onto my pages from there and gone into the new year planning. I have created a habit tracker, to make sure I am going to the gym regularly or doing my physio, which I always forget. I can now visually see how much or little I am doing. I’ve also added a mood tracker, so I can see what I’m doing when I’m happy and what I should be doing when I’m not. I won’t say too much about it, as I will be doing a blog post on it soon, but it is something I would like to upkeep in the new year.
Those are all the resolutions I would like to start fresh with in the new year of 2020. I am so excited to have a clear mindset when the clock strikes midnight (sorry too cheesy), to get my life in order again.
Thank you so much for reading!